Returning Stardom
Wouldn’t you know it, as soon as my blog was complete I hit that infamous wall called “writers block.” Funny how that works. I’ve even had moments of “do I really have anything interesting to say? Is my blog going to be one of the many that sit idle with no comments/tweets and is only updated a few times a year?” Brutal. There were many great topics rolling around in my mind, yet none of them felt visceral and demanded to be written. Then I began searching online for a star photo and this article flowed through.
The star symbol has shined bright in my psyche lately. In Mayan astrology the “star” symbolizes the energy of harmony, beauty, giving/receiving love and the ability to shine bright in front of others. In my Mayan astrology chart the “star” is my achilles heel, my obstacle, which for me translates into having a ton of ambivalence about shining bright.
Where some stand in front of crowds with ease and grace, soaking up every last drop of love and attention, I freeze up. Yep, me. Give me a great cause or a hot Nia routine and I can hide out in my leadership ability, but anyone who is very sensitive to energy can clearly feel my discomfort in the moments when it is simply me.
So added to my 2010 desire list is to let myself be a STAR. From this day forward I am researching the move of going from low light to STARlight.
One of the reasons this has been so tricky for me is the barrage of judgments I had about people acting “better” or “superior” and that blatantly outshining others was lame – good people “should” be humble. Ugh I know, I was so confused and I clearly see a trail of difficult situations that were created due to my inability to claim my … stardom.
These crazy beliefs, that are currently falling victim to my self-love sledgehammer, are epidemic. Women are taught to keep their lights dim for fear that they might make someone feel bad, or worse, induce the poison arrows of envy and jealousy. Turns out this psychology benefits no one.
Rockstar, superstar, stardom, whatever you want to call it, I am a junkie for the truth and the truth is I am a STAR. I am a brilliant light of energy that synthesizes my unique path into gifts that shine beautifully on the world. Yep, me. And YOU are a STAR also. You are a brilliant light of energy that synthesizes your unique path into gifts that shine beautifully on the world. Ahhhhh, the truth feels so good.
We are ALL stars and that is the extra special bonus to this whole set-up on earth. The night sky is beautiful with a single star, gorgeous with a few hundred stars, but it is only when the sky is blazing with gazillions of stars that we are filled with pure awe, knowing deeply that we are part of something magical.
